Unbearable Pain: My Battle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by quick shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Maureen Hess
Maureen Hess

A data scientist and AI researcher with a passion for making complex tech concepts accessible to everyone.